Kerosene Heights - Love Spelled Backwards Is Love Lyrics

You only like me when I’m gone,
It’s something I can’t wrap my head around yet,
But it feels so real to me,
If I keep writing the same songs,
Over and over again will they one day connect?
I don’t know but I’ll keep trying,
I guess I’m still in the same place I was last year,
Cause even when everything changes,
The last thing to change is me,
I told myself that I’d grow up but I didn’t,
And I don’t care,
But I still find it harder and harder to fall asleep,
Took a walk through our neighborhood,
In the spring time it was beautiful,
Feeling swallowed by all of the problems that I couldn’t see,
And there’s something to hate about all of this “business as usual”
Till it’s starting to seem like there’s something to hate about me,
How the fuck do I not get it yet,
Guess I’ll probably never know,
I just hope that you aren’t sick of it,
Where’s the line on letting go?
Maybe tomorrow will be a change,
Another chance to participate,
I’m still so far from the finish line,
And feel my legs start to give away,
I think that I just need a moment,
To catch my breath and check my phone,
Because right now it just feels like I’m exploding,
And one day it might happen to us both,
I’m not saying goodbye again,
I’m not saying goodbye,