Thought I’d be a different person
But it’s just a different life
If I got married tomorrow
I’d feel like a teenage wife
I am older at the parties
Thought that wouldn’t bother me
I can tell who’s turning 30 verses being 23
The girls I knew at 16 have a friend group of their own
Thought I’d make new friends in college but majority moved home
My best friends in New York City!
She is beauty, she is grace
And I wonder if we’ll ever live again in the same place
Was it better?
I was younger, different problems, different names
Was it perfect?
Was it simple?
Was it more or less the same
How did it change?
How did I change?
How did it change?
How did I change?
How did I… change
I insisted that the faces of my parents couldn’t change, and I love how I look like my mama when she was my age
Thought the world only got bigger
I’d be hanging at the park
Throwing balls at cement walls
Until the sky got dark
Crying at the supermarket
Crying at the DMV
Crying at the doctors office
Crying independently
Growing pains are only growing
It’s a new reality
Everything feels more nostalgic in a partial memory
Was it better?
I was younger, different problems, different names
Was it perfect?
Was it simple?
Was it more or less the same
How did it change?
How did I change?
How did it change?
How did I change?
How did I…