I could never have imagined you would fall in love with me
And I can’t convince myself that you would never want to leave
Daddy trauma has emasculated all my common sense
So I’m looking through the lens of an impending abandonment
All the voices in my head say I’m not worth the time you spent
So I search for an escape before you notice your mistake
I wish that I could say all this mess might go away
I’m a constant work in progress and I can’t keep fears at bay
And my mind is like a record set up on auto-replay
Replay, replay, replay, replay
And my mind is like a record set up on auto-replay
I’ve been guilty of the hero complex, lend a helping hand
But I’m realizing now that I’ve made my own quicksand
And my therapist has told me I’m not any good with help
I’m in lust with independence, I can only blame myself
There’s a fear that if my cape is taken, what use am I then?
I’m afraid of being lonely, I can hardly comprehend
I wish that I could say all this mess might go away
I’m a constant work in progress and I can’t keep fears at bay
And my mind is like a record set up on auto replay
Replay, replay, replay, replay
And my mind is like a record set up on auto replay
I’m the best overachiever there’s not anyone like me
And you’d think that was a good thing ’til you’re told that’s not healthy
You spend every waking hour working hard to write your will
Patiently waiting for validation ’til you’re empty and unfulfilled
I wish that I could say all these feelings go away
I’m a constant work in progress and I can’t keep fears at bay
And my mind is like a record set up on auto-replay
Replay, replay, replay, replay,
And my mind is like a record set up on auto-replay
Replay, replay, replay, replay
And my mind is like a record set up on auto-replay
Replay, replay, replay, replay,
And my mind is like a record set up on auto-replay
Replay, replay, replay, replay,
And my mind is like a record set up on auto-replay
Other lyrics by Cynthia Erivo:
As Long As You're Mine
(from “Wicked: For Good” soundtrack) Kiss me too fiercely, hold me too tight I need help believing you’re with me tonight My wildest dreamings could not …
Be Okay
No rainy weekend is rainy with you The sun will still shine in a little bedroom When you are near and the world is far away As long as you’re here, I’ll be …
Best For Me
It was a Tuesday, I woke up early There was tension in the air, didn’t see it coming Go ahead and ask it so I can admit it I have an honesty in me and I won’t …
Brick By Brick
Brick by brick I’m building my walls, putting my guards up Making them tall, keeping the light out Shades on the windows, no looking inside Feels like I’m …
Defying Gravity
From “Wicked: The Soundtrack” Elphaba Why couldn’t you have stayed calm for once Instead of flying off the handle? I hope you’re happy [GLINDA] I hope …